This weekend I embarked on the adventure that is one’s first comic book/sci-fi/fantasy/all things geek convention. I went to CONvergence.
I’m still processing the experience, the multitudes of, well, everything. Tamora Pierce‘s tattoos. The incredibly complex costumes. Yoga Quest. The foam sword fighting. The vast array of items one could purchase in the dealers room. Everything Joss Whedon ever. But before I lost the freshness of the weekend, I wrote a letter, a collection of first impressions if you will.
First off, I’m glad you exist. You give a home to thousands of people that in many other circumstances feel extraordinarily out of place. Secondly, I am glad I attended you, glad I dove in relatively face first and met your denizens, listened to your speakers (Tamora Pierce, OMG), drank your alcohol, perused your wares, and just generally basked in your chaotic blend of costume, intellect, and connection.
HOWEVER… as noted yesterday [in my journal], I do not believe you are my tribe. I wish you were. I would love to belong somewhere so thoroughly, with people so filled with YES! But I do not, unfortunately, and I’m beginning to believe I don’t really quite belong anywhere. But that’s another story for another time.
There are many things you do so well, CON- you embrace the multitudes, not even regardless of particular predilections, but because of them. You are unabashedly, inclusively sexual, something the world needs more of. You provide for your people, with conversations of all sorts and sustenance for body and mind.
But CON, you also hurt my heart. You produce a lot of waste after a lot of consumption. You are very white. You are excessively air conditioned. You are internet-centric and astoundingly absent of nature.
In the end I stick by my beginning statement. I’m glad I went. I am not sure what future years will bring, nor am I certain of what I might want to pursue. But thanks for loving the oft unloved, CON.