Yes, it’s Halloween. But I’m increasingly unable to avoid my attention being drawn to the impending election, in spite of it being my favorite holiday today and my birthday in less than two weeks. So here’s what’s on my mind:
Sometimes it feels like we’re prophets, sharing the gospel of sustainable community living (though of course we’re constantly reinventing what that means and how we do it together). This is most certainly a bit grandiose, and I am aware that I can occasionally fall prey to delusions of grandeur. But when my housemate says “I want my car to be a community car” and “sure I’ll try the Diva Cup“, I feel deeply in my bones we must be doing something worthwhile. This grand experiment of life is not for naught.
Following is a quote from Pema Chodron that I found in the first entry in the ‘Favorites’ list on my long forgotten Google Reader feed; too many stories, too little time! It’s just…perfect. I’ve spent many hours talking with my housemates about my need for control, for knowing exactly how what I’m doing is meaningful. And Pema Chodron’s words just break all of that down beautifully, because truly we can never know, and need to find peace and freedom and life in that truth.
“Things falling apart is a kind of testing and also a kind of healing. We think that the point is to pass the test or to overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all this to happen; room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy. When we think something is going to bring us pleasure, we don’t know what’s really going to happen. When we think something is going to give us misery, we don’t know. Letting there be room for not knowing is the most important thing of all. We try to do what we think is going to help. But we don’t know. We never know if we’re going to fall flat or sit up tall. When there’s a big disappointment, we don’t know if that’s the end of the story. It may just be the beginning of a great adventure.”
In other news, I’m getting into zines again. Maybe I’ll even create one at long last! I’m ordering this, and would love any recommendations.